melt

You were mad
Frustrated
and pissed off.
For reasons I could only guess,
but still took out on me.

Don't hide
or run away
don't leave me here alone
to muddle through this mess
of emotional
trash.

I want you to know
that you don't have
to do everything.
Just love me
and share
so I can help
you
with stuff.

It's the joy of being together
that comforts me
not having a servant
to do
my dirtywork.

do men feel overburdened?
by life,
women,
bills, work.

I wish I could say
what I feel
and show you
my love
in a way that would
actually make a difference.

And I know that you know
that I
love you.
But do you know just how much?
Or how deep?
It overwhelms me?
to even say your name...

the dishes aren't done yet
I'm at work making money
to help out at home.
I haven't worked out in a while
and i feel small and alone.

give me one promise
anything at all!
promise to love me
or think of me
when you're gone
or
just say my name and
breath a sigh
it says it all
when you say
nothing
at all.

you're away
and I am mad
that i keep growing
and changing
and i have "pretty" days
yet you're not here
to see
the changes.
and I can't see
yours

the world keeps turning
though i wish it would stop
i must keep moving
one foot in front of the other
and walk

so you will know that I can live
and still laugh
without you
or maybe I just pretend
to be whole in this world
of the living
inside I feel frozen and dead.

this is why
it amazes me
that with one word
just one tiny word from your lips,
i melt
it all vanishes
this intricate world
I retreat to
when i am lost
and I am normal once again.